To Carry or Not to Carry

Final Thoughts of the Night:

As I tuck my Special Agent back into its safe place after protecting me tonight as I shut down the office to leave and go home, this thought crossed my mind....

What I thought was "my right" to live and protect myself is seeming in reality to be a reason to die or get killed. So the question now becomes "To Carry or NOT to Carry?"

It seems that a permit means nothing if your skin isn't the right shade. It seems that it is a mute point to have a license to carry a weapon to protect yourself, as it is more like a license to be killed if a cop is unsure of his/her skills and training and allow fear to pull the trigger on his service weapon.

So, what is the point of it all? Whether you have a permit or not, at the sound of one having a gun, apparently that is enough of a threat or warning to police that you just might use it... not properly or according to the law..., but to just shoot them for lack of anything left to live for. So, do you tell them you have it or do you conceal the fact that it is on your person or in your car, for fear of their possible ill-fated reaction and response? Do you let them just discover it on their own and then accuse you of plotting on them since you failed to mention having it? What? Help me here.... I'm confused...

But then I hear, as I'm driving home all of the mass destruction that's going on in the world, all at the expense of something that is supposed to be used to protect us. I know guns don't kill people by themselves, but I'm feeling some kind of way and a bit of resentment for even carrying my "Special Agent Derek Morgan" due to the uncertainty of the laws (although I took the courses), the rights, the evil, the hurt, and even the sadness that can possibly be related to it in general... I'm feeling scared to even protect myself by carrying and using the one thing that I chose for protection and that is supposedly designed to protect me....So again "To Carry or Not to Carry". #NoSecret #iCarryHeat

Leave Those Kids Alone

Some Fathers, and don't get me wrong, Mothers too, have NO clue of the impact they have on their children. Parents have the ability to make or break a child in the simplest ways possible, that have major, life long impacts on their children. The reason I started off with Fathers is because the majority of the kids I see have more "daddy issues" than "momma issues". Not to say that one bears more blame than the other, but based on my current experiences. However, the point of the matter is this... 1. Don't take your crappy life out on kids. 2. Let kids be kids and stop including them in your grown up problems and conversations, and then get mad when they talk to you like your equal instead of your child. 3. Instead of waiting until they get out of line before you try to correct them, start teaching them early. (Trust me, I know that this doesn't always work with some of the head strong kids but it doesn't mean you give up teaching and correcting. Keep on until they get it or is able to get out). 4. Stop staying around abusive spouses that not only abuse the kids but abuse you too. 5. If you know you don't have patience, wrap it up, take a pill, abstain, or whatever you need to do to prevent yourself from harming or scarring a child for life. If you can't help'em don't hurt'em... I rather you be a deadbeat or absent in their lives than to cause them so much heartache and pain...

And there it is...... #iLoveTheKids ~Marilyn~